My heart is grieved by the recent chemical gas attacks on Syria. This war has been ongoing and the death toll and horror climbs. There is no peace and fear is an ever present reality for the Syrian people. Then the devastation hits their home and families face so much loss that they mass bury their dead and the heartache and pain levels sore.
How is such deep pain processed; how can they bare it?
This is NOT God. This is Satan.
Only Satan would be so cruel and merciless as to attack children and innocent people.
He hates us. He hates us because we are the image of God, and his work is growing and it is devastating.
My soul laments.
My heart cries out…why?
Why is it necessary?
Leave them alone!
And I’m angry and my heart aches. A comorbidity of emotions swirling within my chest.
And I want vengeance.
I want Satan to pay for this.
Still…there is solace.
I know that God will have the victory in the end.
I know he will grow tired of Satan’s reign of terror on this earth.
I know that one day God will have his vengeance and Satan will pay.
You may wonder why God has allowed it to continue this long. It is because he isn’t done with us. He isn’t done with humanity. He isn’t ready to call it quits on everything he has made. I believe he is waiting for the remnant and for every soul to have the opportunity to specifically make a choice to follow him or reject him. He is waiting for us to decide.
As I am writing the song “Carry Me Through” by Dave Barnes has begun to play on the Pandora station.
There’s a mountain
Here before me
And I’m going to climb it
With strength not my own
He’s gonna lead me
Or the mountain beats me
Carry me through
Carry me through
Oh Lord be gentle
I’m just a man
Please don’t crush me
And help me in
Lord Sweet Lord
Carry me through.
And in my sorrow, for all that this world sees, a praise for God raises up from the pit because in this place I know…
God WILL bring redemption.
Come LORD Jesus…Please Come.
Don’t come just now because…I don’t want anyone left behind.
I know, and I remember again, that God is sovereign and he knows when to come. He knows when it is time. And, it isn’t time yet…
But I trust Him.
I trust him to bring the sorrow to an end when it is time and in that trust there is hope.
And from the depths of sorrow and through tears of a contrite heart, the words from “It Is Well With My Soul” break through.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
It is well, it is well with my soul
And the paradox of a heart deeply affected by the pain in this world but still fixed on Christ is displayed in sorrowful tears that still sing God’s praise.
Because I trust Him.
I know he sees things I can’t see. He knows things I don’t know. He sees the big picture and he is looking at, and taking into consideration, things I can’t understand or fathom.
I believe that he is good and that because he is good, good will prevail and that good will ultimately win.
So there is trust and praise here in the midst of sadness.
And, an unexplainable peace in sorrow. I know Who to cry to.
Because God hears us and sees us.
As we face unimaginable evil in this world we can trust that God sees and that he will bring redemption and that he will have his vengeance because he hates this as much, maybe even more, than we do. This is why he said, “Vengeance in Mine. I will repay.” (Romans 12:19)
He won’t forget.
He is loving, but he is also just. One day, when it is time, and when God is no longer waiting for us to decide how we feel about him, he will come and the fullness of his wrath will be poured out on Satan and his cronies, and they will deserve every bit of it.
This isn’t for us to decide. But we can make a choice about which side of the war we want to be on. I choose God.
I trust Him.
Pray for refugees around the world.
Pray for hope.
Pray for redemption.
Pray for peace.
“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Author: Jacqi Kambish